so you're a nurse? almost!

like usualy, night of worship on sunday was amazing.

the Spirit was sooo thickly there and it was awesome.

my pastor made the comment that when the Spirit is in the room, He wants to heal and perfect the things in the presence with Him.

so he said people needed healing and that the Lord would heal.

so a couple people did get healed.

and while i'm standing there, i get the feeling that the Spirit was pushing me.

and as i get this feeling, chris says, "any type of healing is welcome. depression, physical, emotional.  anything"

and i knew why the Lord was moving in me.  

i was there because i needed emotional healing.

i needed healing from my past and the insecurities it carries on me today.

so as i am standing by cassie, i told her i got that feeling. 

she said, 'what feeling?'

and i siad, 'where the Lord is telling me i need healing.  and i need emotional healing'

and i said i didn't want to go up, so cas says let's pray now!

so we did.  and she prayed for me. and it was beautiful.  and i just cried.

and after her prayer, we got to talking more and she inquired more.

and man, i just tell ya that she is such a blessing.

her heart for the Lord is so clear and she i am going to miss her when they move {in january.}

i wish these last 2 years of attending VGF i had had the time to pour more into her.

but trusting the Lord knew what He was doing.

and since then, i feel the Lord has been working hard core on healing my emotions.

and at the same time, today i felt discouraged about being single.

funny how both emotions can be so strong in the same day?

i just need to fully surrender it all to the Lord.  

seems so easy at first glance...but the practicality of that is dying to self.  and let's be honest.  that is hard work.

but He is so patient and so faithful.

and in the mist of the hard times, He is providing more strength and energy than i thought possible.

i'm exhausted and haven't been sleeping much.  which may or may not contribute to the emotional roller coaster i feel to be on.

so i'm off to bed.  so that when the alarm goes off at 5:45 i hopefully won't be as tired.  

p.s..rach and i skyped ryan and zach yesterday.

it was so fun.

at one point, zach said: 'so you're a nurse?!'

i said: 'almost!'

and then someone mentioned he was in med school so i said, 'you're a doctor!?'

to which he said, 'almost!'.  totally mocking me.

but i loved it haha.

i am so jealous that rach gets to go see them soon!

alright..now off to bed!