when stuff happens.

well to say that the last 48 hours have been a whirlwind would be such an understatement.

my grandmother was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer that has spread all throughout her body.

yesterday the doctor said 5-7 days is her time expectancy.

we started her on hospice this afternoon.

i have cried lots and lots.

my grandma has been my biggest supporter and encourager for every phase of my life.

i cannot imagine going through some vital periods without her support.  selfishly, i want her there for m

even today she said to be (when we were talking about the boards).

gma: we've been over this (in a loving tone, not condemning).  everything you were worried about has turned out so great.  you will do great.

see?  she has always been there pushing me along.

making me believe i can do it. 

having full confidence in me.

she literally has been the best grandma anyone could ask for.

these next couple days/weeks will be so hard.

lots of unknown (which is so not conducive to a college schedule, especially when you're 2 hours away).  lots of taking it a day at a time.  which for this type A personality is sometimes rough.

so please pray for her.

for her peace, for her comfort.  for the comfort of my family.

also, my greatest prayer is that she comes to know the Lord in these last few moments.