everything is meaningless.

'meaningless, meaningless.  everything is meaningless!'
sounds like shakespeare or something, but it's actually in the Bible.
ecclesiastes, that is. Ecc 1:1-11 to be exact.
this past sunday that is what our message at church was about.

its a passage about all these things that meaningless--under the sun.
under this sun, nothing matters.  nothing satisfies.  nothing lasts.
but what lasts is what will be eternal with Jesus.
and as i was sitting there listening to it i kept thinking,

'ann, clinical is meaningless'

not in the sense that it isn't important, because it definitely is.
i'm learning and expected to perform well.
but in the scheme of these: my experience, instructor, and struggles that i have had this semester... they don't really matter.
they will come and go.  just as the sun rises and sets each day.
and what WILL be left is my beautiful Jesus.
and that all brought me such great comfort.
it made me {semi} excited to go to clinical. 
(just wanting to get it over with, really. but it gave me confidence)

i was worried this would make clinical even more challenging this week....BUT....
i have never had a patient get dischanrged while i'm on the floor...until tonight.

and boy do i loooove discharges {probably almost as much as the patients!! LOL}

it made my night soo much easier.

and i was in much need of an easy clinical after last fridays clinical.

had the patient for about three hours, and then she was gone.  

and the nurse i had was AWESOME.  so that helped a lot, too.

tonight, i got to perform my first straight catheter!

not as exciting as it seems, but it was fun to get experience.

and through it all, if i am keeping my eyes on Him and how to be as Christlike as i can, in the end i am winning.  i am putting effort into the one thing that is eternal, everlasting, superior, fulfilling and all loving.
that is so meaningFUL.
and that's where i need to remain my focus.

only 2 more wednesdays of this insane-ness.

and oh how i can't wait till they're over with!