i spoke too soon.

i have spoke too soon the last several posts, and knowing what happened before peru, i should have known.

for some reason, i am getting really nervous about haiti.

there are just so many things going through my head as it is the weekend before i leave.

i am stressed about the things i need to get done before hand.

i am stressed about missing the money while i'm away.

i am stressed about the team dynamic.

i am stressed that i will be so exhausted going into the trip, it will be miserable.

i am so stressed i will be on my period while in haiti.

and the list could go on and on...

it hit me tonight.

as i babysat the ortens, i just felt a wave of emotions.

first of all, they are leaving for vacation tonight.  

all week i have kept thinking, 'i could have been going on this trip'

and had it not been for haiti, i would be going to the beach with them.  for 2 whole weeks.

it would have been so glorious {yet i know last summer brought about some stresses, too, which is to be expected when you're not traveling with your family...then add 4 young kids}

but i really do love their family and will miss them.

and the girls several times kept mentioning they wish i was going with them.

broke my heart.

but i know this summer and my opportunity through haiti will be wonderful and life changing.

so after the emotions of, 'i'm no longer vaca ann' i started getting all antsy about haiti.

maybe it's cause i saw jenny and mark running around getting everything ready?

or the fact that i knew this event was right before my trip and they'll be gone when i leave.

wowza.  that's big stuff.

but on a funny note.

at work today, we were reminiscing on things people do...and particularly funny things that cleo says.

i guess when it's flu season and we do a ton of flu shots, you'll have like 5 people in the same family.

where 3 kids are under the table and 2 are on top.

and cleo is known for walking in and saying, 'i'll take the young chickens first' 

which, if you know cleo, is just flipping hilarious.

i love that woman.  she is so funny....and sooo knowledgeable.

so yes.  give her those little chickens and she'll be good to go!

ashley s. had her last day today, and i will miss her.

she was so sweet just in the 2 weeks i knew her.

and she had rediscovered my love to want to go shoot some guns! lol.