almost 5 years.

last night, the impossible happened.

not really, but something i never thought in a million years would.

i have a friend from germany {i met when i was there for 2 weeks, almost 5 years ago} and we skyped last night for the first time since that summer.  we have been messaging regularly over these 5 years but never more than that.  until last night.

i was worried it would be awkward and there wouldn't be anything to talk about, but 1 hr and 34 minutes into the conversation i realized that clearly wasn't the case.  i ended it at that time to end on a good note.  if it isn't obvious, this friend is a man.  a cute man who loves the Lord.  a lot.

i am so thankful for our conversation as it was uplifting and encouraging.  but i also have no idea if this will ever go anywhere, ever.  my guess is it won't, since it hasn't already in these last 5 years.  but you can be praying for wisdom and discernment on how to act/not act.  

at some points, i scream "Lord, take him out of my life if he isn't supposed to be there!" and other times pray, "Lord, help him to be captivated by my heart, if it is your will".  i just want some definitive answers here! haha.  

anyways, i have no idea why the Lord has continued to keep him in my life, and just have to trust that i don't need to know or i would.  but the 'waiting to see why this all happened the way it did', is hard.  and i need patience.  but regardless!  i am encouraged that there are men out there who have quality. and it's enough encouragement to hang on and not settle. these men may be in texas and half way across the country, but they exist.

so 5 years.....here's to 5 more! LOL.

(any of you have these type of stories?! friends who you met traveling that you keep in touch/don't keep in touch with?!  or am i alone in this?!)