bobby and molly 1st christmas party!

last night, my bro and sis in law had their first big christmas party.

lots were invited and lots came.

i didn't even know many of the people.  

but it was a blast regardless.

santa decided to make a visit, 

and my mom thought it would be a good idea to be his side-kick.

no other words are needed at this time:

{me and kel}

{the fam!}

{john and his gf, beth.  looove her!}

{me and my big sis}

 

{bob and dan}

 

there were many many more pics, but i had to cut it off here.

and then elizabeth came and stayed the night cause she was meeting duncan near me and didn't want to drive all the way back home.  we stayed up late and talked and then went to my church.

which, by the way, i love more than anything!

i am just so so blessed and can't get over it.  

marilyn came up and asked about mike, and john overheard.

he asked me why i was hiding from him and that he wanted to know more soon.

they're just so intentional.  john told me he cna't believe i didn't tell him sooner.

i told him i know he is busy and has a lot on his plate.  he told me that was bogus and that i need to stop thinking i am not important.

he said he was my family and he loved me.

those words?  meant so so much to me.

the sermon toady was on living a lie and talked about the lies we live.

well i was so talked to because i believe i am not good enough.

i have so many insecurities and feel so unworthy of so much.

{not that it isn't bad to feel appreciative, but there's a fine line}

and i need to pout into the Lord more to start believing truth.

when he did an altar call, i just had to go up.

i had that burning-heart pounding-lump in throat feeling.

so i went up to pray and kelsi came up to pray with me.

just that support and comfort was huge. 

i don't know where i would be without so many of them.

i just wish school was so much closer to here :(

but i'm going to enjoy the time i have.

it's 9 pm and i'm off to bed.

i've gotten almost 12 hours of sleep a night and still exhausted!

{one last family photo!}

i just love the holiday season!