my life. currently.

if this doesn't describe my current status in life i don't know what does:

hectic. crazy. messy. unorganized.

fall break was so so good, and it was so good to see those i work with/babysit for.

but it was exhausting, to say the least.

and i feel i am still paying for it.

i've been so drained the last several days and i don't know why!! 

but on a happier note, i went to clinical today with hospice people.

i sat in on a family who was choosing hospice for their mom/grandma.

i tell ya, i tried so hard to hold it in and not cry.

it is so sad to see those mourning.

and so hard to not think, 'this could be me with a family member soon'.

the nurse i was with was amazing and had such a heart for it.

and then i got to babysit {which was even more exhausting, but fun}

and then went to bible study with the women from church.

they are all SOOO wise and i was reminded of that tonight.

i need to be in community with them more to learn and be sharpened.

i can and am learning so much from them it's unreal.  but i love it.

annnd while at starbucks, my "crush" came up to our bible study group and said hello.

then he said to have a good night {there were only 3 of us!}

i could have died and went to Heaven right then and there.

....ok.  i might be exaggerating a bit but let me enjoy it :)

Lord, give me strength.  strength only You can give. help me to be moment by moment dependent on You alone.