chinese food.

today i got to have lunch with abby c. and it was wonderful.

i love hearing her wisdom and advice on the current boy situation.

she is so wise and seeks the Lord.

plus, we had chinese.  score! 

then i had a community health clinical.

we were at a teen mom group and it was fine.

we did a lot of standing around but it could be worse.

some of the babies were aDORable!  

and i hate to say it but i was surprised it was all caucasian babies.

the Lord has been teaching me a TON about His love for me.

He has allowed me to rest in that more securely than every before.

i tell ya, it is so amazing and refreshing.  and breaks my heart i didn't truly 'get it' earlier.

and as i was talking to abby today, i realized something else.

i think that the Lord had things with jake happen now because had they tried to happen before Haiti, i still would have been not as engulfed with His love.  

and while i could sit here and think it is a coincidence, it can't be.

because Haiti could be, just maybe, what He waited for to bring someone into my life.

and maybe not.  maybe things with jake will blow over.  but just maybe they won't.

either way.  God is good.  

and even just being friends with jake helps me to get that more.

and while i'm scared to get into anything {because what if it lasts like 2 months?  that's so lame}, i was reminded by abby that if i am seeking the Lord than why does it matter what others think?

maybe He has someone date someone for a couple months as part of His plan.  shocker, huh?  but i wouldn't put it past Him by any means.

finding our identity in Him should be first and foremost importance.  

so i'm terrified.  and trying to put it at the Lord's feet.

and i hate to say it but i totally doubt it when i'm away from him.

but BOY, when i'm with him, i'm really happy.

there is a lot to learn about each party involved. don't get me wrong.

but this could be good.

and also, today for the first time i laughed so hard i spit my drink out.

it was so embarrassing but so funny.

i was with matt, rachel w, becca and brit. 

and rachel was sharing about our jillian work out video.

i just died.  so so funny.

ok, that is all.  happy tuesday!