post DTR.

this past week we had a continuation to the DTR.

let me back up to a conversation i had the other day.

on tuesday, i was in quiet time with the Lord.

i had been praying for wisdom and knowledge and discernment.

and all the sudden i felt the Lord say, "let it go.  just let it go."

i said, "but Lord, that's awkward now because we already said we were interested in each other."  

He again told me to let it go....to which i rudely said,

"well fine, Lord.  if i have to let it go than you're going to have to bring the opportunity becuase i don't want to bring it up to him."

He said: "don't worry.  i will.  just let it go"

that night, i knew it wasn't my thoughts just thinking that because i was so discouraged.

i sat there and prayed "Lord, i am SO tired of waiting.  that's all i am doing.  is waiting!"

and honestly?  i get so tired of it.  i feel i get teased with these guys who have such great qualities, except one major one.  and it's on to the next guy.

why can't they just be the one?!  

but in the mist of this thought, it was followed by,

"but Lord, i believe your will and ways are higher than mine.  and i trust you.  and i know that when the time is right, You will provide"

so the next night i get a txt message that says he wants to talk and go on a walk.

i instantly knew this was the Lord giving me an opportunity, and right then and there was not wanting to get what i prayed for haha.  

but we talked.  and he wanted to go farther.  but i had to let it go.

i had to share concerns about the spiritual side of things and other issues.

man, was it such a hard conversation.

and it's hard because some of the people i live with don't get it.

he is a great guy....absolutely.  but not for me.

i have a peace.

i know it was the right choice. 

and i know that He will be faithful.

and i pray that each day brings me closer to His will.  and that i am sensitive enough to hear His voice.

and man am i glad it's the weekend.

time here is flying. 

can't believe we just finished week 4 of class.

i'll be a college grad before i know it.  and oh, i can't wait.