beautiful song, beautiful children.

tonight i was with the Orten twins and had a fun night.

their vocabulary is exploding and they crack me up.

they would say: 'ann, i am poo for halloween'

and lots of other super adorable things.

i am told that louisa, when she found out i was coming, said "vacation ann loves me so much" and had her hands on her heart.

these girls melt me.

and eleanor is so smart.  we read the diamond castle and she was telling me who each character was.

and she was totally correct.  so so precious.

eleanor gave a tiny fit when she was going to bed over sleeping with the book.

but finally we got it under control.  and there was not a peep from them.

they were so tired.

they said they wanted a bath, and it was their night, so that must have put them over the edge.

but i enjoyed the extra time with them.

then becca boo was super cuddly when she came in.

sat with me under my blanked and just was her sweet self.

makes me miss them so so much.  and makes me not wait for the day i can be a mom.

as i am trying to get over my defeated feelings, it is still hard.

i never confessed, but the day i found out i failed the theory exam, i lost it.

i was in the library and thought no one was near me.

so i cried.  and cried and cried and cried.

i was trying to be quiet, but was losing.

so, naturally, there was someone beside me.

my roommate from last year, sarah b.

she came over but i wasn't really wanting to talk.

not to mention, our relationship wasn't the best, so she wasn't someone i wanted to talk to.

i just wanted to wallow in self pity.  but then had to stop so i wasn't distracting.

i'm having a moment where i just want to cry over it again.

and tonight i am feeling a little lonely.

was watching say yes to the dress and it makes me want that for my life.

so so badly.  

more than anything else.

but on pandora, i heard this song and love it.

makes me miss my bestie.

oh, and i scheduled my first 'woman dr.' appointment for christmas break.

how lovely.

happy friday.  fall break is flying by. 

but everyone at malone is sick....so perfect timing for us to be away.