the best best friend.

tonight i got to skype with my best friend.

and i tell you.  i get off the phone with her and always think:

' man, i have the best best friend ever'

cause i truly do.

she just got back from hiking the Inca Trail and seeing Mochu Piccu

i am so proud of her!

but we talked about life, and i asked her opinion on my friend gabe {who has been pursuing me}

we talked about my insecurities.  and how they need to leave.

we talked about how my family and siblings played a lot into that.

and how i come across as being confident but deep down i'm so not.

i just want to run when someone is interested.

and i don't know if it is cause i've never been treated like a Godly man should treat a woman?

or maybe that the it is just so rare that when it happens i am just so weirded out?

lots of hard questions and trying to realize some things.

she told me i was not allowed to 'f' this up.

then at the end of our awesome conversation, she says:

'look at me.  right in the eyes.  you are wonderful.  and beautiful.  and anyone who gets you is so lucky.  you are not going to get rejected.  you need to let someone love you.  cause i can't be the only person in the world who gets to love you'

she just made me feel a million times better.

then we messaged her mom to see if she thought gabe was cute haha.

tyler's comment is that he is cuter than the last boy i was crushing on.

she is such an amazing friend.

sometimes it's hard cause our religious differences.

but even through it all, she is such a blessing.

and has taught me so much.

i can't wait to see how she challenges me as we continue to grow old.

fun fact: today is a rare palindrome.  11.02.2001.

score.  happy hump day!