she doesn't hate me.

over the weekend, i babysat for the family that i have been with for so long.

over 4.5 years, actually.  

and what a blessing they are.

their oldest, aly, just turned 13 so they rarely need a sitter.

but they were off to columbus and wanted someone here in case of something.

the mom, jennifer, and i are pretty close.

i borrow her clothes, have watched her precious children (one of them since the week after birth--eleanora), and she was the first i told when i failed the OGT in HS.  not one of my best moments.

but we're close and i can tell her anything.

we got to talking about the situation this summer with the k-l's.

i thought they hated me and were on their side....i was way wrong.

turns out she stood up for me in front of them saying 'i have known ann longer than you have, and she would not do what you're accusing her of doing'. (it was made out by them that i had a big kegger party.  seriously?!).

she also said it was not OK for them to treat me the way they did.

it went on and on, and boy was it amazing.

just to hear an adult tell me that my side wasn't totally wrong.

cause in my 21 year old tunnel vision, do i just not think it's a big deal?

but to have it confirmed that they made it a bigger deal than needed was so weight lifting.

and tonight was clinical!

it was a bit on the slow side, but better than the alternative.

and i gave my FIRST IM shot tonight.  yessss.

right in the gluteus maximus.  

to my 20 year old pt. 

sometimes it's hard to see them cause i think: 'that could be me'

and why am i so lucky that i am not in that situation and that my environment, childhood, lifestyle, opportunities, morals, values, ect. all line up to that.

i don't deserve it.  yet am beyond thankful that this is where God has me.

as much as i can't wait for that day someday, i am not ready to give up this time in my life. someday.  just not yet.

ordered phil wickham tickets and PUMPED.

got to skype tyler.....so always a good day!

love her like crazy. 

{long day...glad it's over!}

and trying to not make dating/marriage an idol is proving to be hard.(er than expected).