too enthusiastic?!

tomorrow is our first theory exam of the semester.

considering how last semester played out, i am a bit nervous.

i am praying for strength and the ability to remember what He is teaching me.

my clinical instructor told me recently that i need to not be so enthusiastic when new tasks present themselves at clinical.

since when is it a bad thing to be excited about learning new tasks?! LOL.

{i got to do IVP's and TPN hanging.  new stuff.  so i was excited}.

i responded that i love life and feel it is a privilege to get to be His hands and feet through the profession of nursing.  

i told her that i feel we have a privilege to get to show His light to others.

i also said that i will try to tone it down to not be an annoyance or bother to the floor.

but really?!  i think it's a compliment that she sees i am full of LIFE.

why shouldn't i be full of life?!  

i am a child of God and get to live for Him each and every day.  

i see His mercy new each morning and am so humbled by His love, when i am so undeserving.  

i am honored to get to be His hands and feet through the career of nursing.  

and THAT brings me so much joy, excitement and enthusiasm!

but recently, i have had a hard time loving others--particularly those i live with.

i would really appreciate prayers as i am trying to change my attitude, and heart.

when others are disrespectful, hurtful, and other things, it's hard to still love.

but i want to love and serve no matter what the circumstance!  

the last couple days have been a bit rough--maybe my depression is setting in more now that the weather is actually getting colder (or at least it was.  today will be almost 60 degrees.  it's almost february....since when does this happen?!)

i love the summer so i am totally fine if this winter just passes right on by.

i have also been praying about being an RA.

several RA's/RD has inquired me about it but i don't know.

it's a big time commitment.

i'm almost leaning toward no, but want to be open to it all if it is what the Lord has in store.

so, i would really appreciate prayers on changing my heart and being able to love, unconditionally; my exam tomorrow; and rooming decisions next year.

happy tuesday!

i am just ready for wednesday to be over already :)