yes and no.

today was my last day home for the summer.

i have lots of thoughts going through my head.

most prominent....where did this summer go?!?

yes, i am excited to be back and see everyone.

yes, i am ready to be away and on my own again.

yes, a bit of me is ready to forget that the family that means so much to me never wants to speak with me.  {cause here, i'm constantly reminded of that.}

yes, i look forward to the fun things that college students do and new adventures that will come along.

BUT

no, i am not ready for homework.

no, i am not ready to live in a teeny tiny space with no personal room.

no, i am not looking forward to having a limited amount of home cooked meals.

no, i am not looking forward to stress and everything that comes with another semester.

lucky for me, it's not my choice as to whether or not i can go back.  for i am.

today was rough day cause i owed my parents for their payment they made for school.

well the money just isn't there.  i'm short.  several thousands of dollars.

talk about a humbling and horrifying experience and conversation.

never have i felt so embarrassed.  that might be an overstatement but you get what i mean.

then, i got to say goodbye to some people here and that's always hard.

i have to keep telling myself that i will be back and it will (hopefully) go faster than i think.

i hung out with the ortens and they got me hooked to the Bachelor Pad.

man...i'm such a sucker for these shows!

jenny listened to me about the family issues and helped me process things.

it was sooo helpful to have another adult's opinion in the matter.

i also had one more round of chocolate chips and cheese-its.

i will miss them more than most.

now, if you'll please excuse me....

i need to go spend the last night in my big, comfy, bed.